Been A While

Guess it has been awhile since I visited the blog.

Things have been just a shade of grey that have made life seem too blurry to write. 

Perhaps you have been there?  Not a pretty place - but at least for the most part - as everything is out of focus - you can't really tell where you are - so its not that bad.

Lots of "Holiday" hoopla - and all that - except this year the Hoopla seemed to be missing. Or perhaps I was just missing in the Hoopla. 

We had our usual drive down to GA.  Actually enjoyed the road trip - listened to Tolkien and chatted with the Oldest.  This time nothing was said that rocked either of our worlds - unusual for us - as normally during the 16 hour drive someone gets in a historic reference that leaves the other a bit battered and bruised - usually its the Oldest letting out a solid "ding" - I know he isn't trying to.  I think we just get a bit too comfortable on the drive and things slip out that we normally would know enough to keep in.  Was nice this year not to get the slap along with the hugs.

Spent the rest of the trip feeling like I was balanced on a highwire - Mom just did not seem very happy - and I did not know how to make that ok - The Youngest was waiting for a bomb to go off around every corner - and it made him sort of a bomb of his own.  Of course I was not a bit of help - as I was funked out waiting for Congress to pull it together and do something about the Fiscal Cliff.
They just had to wait until the very last moment of the last day I was there to complete the package - so while I truly am duly thankful for their having finally pulled it together- it would have been great it they did not take the entire vacation to do it. - Guess there is always someone who will find something to whine about - and now I am that person (surprise!) -

So now I am back home - after another actually really great roadtrip - and feeling just as grey as I did before.  Which makes pretty much no sense - as afterall - I have two great road trips in - and the Fiscal Cliff has been dealt with - even if we do still have a ton to work on in the year ahead.

Is this just the normal winter blues? - Seems like I have gotten them ahead of schedule and a bit harsher if they are.  I feel like I need to get out of this place - only I just did  and that did not help. 

So perhaps I need to get out of this rut - this cycle of grey  (which unbelievably I might note I am actually wearing all grey today - just noticed that).   I think I need to shake it up - with purpose.  Make myself go do stuff - new stuff - not just set a schedule for early spring cleaning.  I may need to do the spring cleaning - but perhaps when the world is in perma-grey - this is not the best time to set your cap on completing that?

So tonight I am going to find time for a change - not sure what yet - but I think the challenge is on.  I think I will start by adding some color to my wardrobe..................

Get your New Year On....................its been a while - but I think I can learn how to do this again -

Smiles to you