Finding your way in the dark can seem to be an impossible task. It is not.
Open your eyes and pause for a moment. It is not as dark as you think. Almost invariably there is light there, somewhere. Perhaps not a great deal, but light nonetheless. If you take the time to stand still your eyes will adjust. You will find that you can see. You can move through the darkness, surefooted and unencumbered.
I remember a idea from a poet, whose name I unfortunately cannot remember - it went something like this:
When you are lost in the Forest
Remember
You are not lost
The Forest knows where you are
Be Silent and the path will find you
Admittedly I have probably slaughtered the poet's structure and language here - but the concept is much the same as learning to walk in the dark. You are never really lost. You are never really in the dark. You are always centered, within yourself.
No one can take that power away from you, except you. No one.
Now, turn out the lights - and walk freely, along whatever path you choose.
You're right. It's just hard to remember when you are plunged into sudden darkness--especially if you expected the light to continue. It will be 5 years since April 20, 2005, and I am still having trouble letting my eyes adjust.
ReplyDeleteLinda,
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. There are some aspects of "darkness" that are very, very hard to gaze into. It is far easier to have your "eyes wide shut" and just fumble around. On the other hand, I have found that this particular source of darkness in my life is a wellspring from which I can draw courage and strength. I use my love and my memories to push me forward. It is not always easy to do. Sometimes I feel like just staring at old photos and praying for the past to disappear. But most of the time, I can summon strength and the loss becomes a guiding light.
Not sure if I expressed this well or not - but, I believe what I carry in my heart helps the light continue. Sounds like empty platitude - but we have to work with the reality we have - and this is how I have learned to make it work for me.
Rence