Breezy

Decided that I do not need the other car - despite how lovely it might be.  If I absolutely have to have something like it - than I can save up and get one that comes with a warranty - like a grown up - or at least a responsible grown up.

Now I just have to figure out how to be a responsible grown up and pick out a car for the Boy.  This is much harder than it appears.  I have a terrible weakness when it comes to my guys.  I love to see them smile.  I thrive on their laughter and their joy.  I tremble with the mere thought of being the cause of anything that might make them sad or mad.  (Though I must admit I would prefer mad, and do not shy away from mad if that is what the situation warrants.)  However, the tear zone - that is so much harder to face.  And the disappointment zone - OMG - that is like walking into the belly of the BEAST.

So you see, picking out the car is truly not easy.  It was actually pretty simple for the Eldest.  At least I thought it was. I wandered around, visited several lots, cruised the internet etc., and then I saw THE CAR, and just knew I had found the car to get him.  I negotiated my deal and proudly drove it home to him.  And he did smile  - and he seemed thrilled, and proud and happy. 

I did not find out until about three days ago that he did not really like the car.  But perhaps, it is only now that he does not really like it, after all that was 2007 and this is now.  In any event - this has been a much different experience.  First, the Boy has been much more explicit about his likes and dislikes. 

There are many more dislikes on the list than likes.  I feel like I have wandered into a maze and the space keeps getting smaller and smaller.  Yeesh!  I tried to open up the alternatives today - and while I may have found some he would find acceptable - I have to admit that they are cars that I would not find acceptable.  So I am stuck. 

Perhaps I should get him a set of matchbox cars and send him off to school with a note that says "Hope to find a bigger version of one of these by Thanksgiving?"

In the interim - I pray for the will-o'-the wisp that will gently bring the inspiration, the flyer, the internet site - to my attention that makes it possible for me to both meet his expectations and fulfill my own desire for safety and sanity for my Boy behind the wheel.

Wish I could say I was feeling loose and Breezy -

But perhaps another day or two and that can happen for me

Hope it is happening for you.............